Goodbye Mom, I Love You.

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It’s been over a month since I last wrote on this blog. I just didn’t know what to write. A month ago today, July 5th, my Mom, Kathi Kopprasch, passed away suddenly from a massive heart attack. She was 58. She was always so full of life, even having a 4th of July party the night before.  It was her favorite holiday and she told me about all the decorations she had gotten and how excited she was. The next day, when the phone rang, I answered, “Well?”, expecting to hear Mom’s voice saying “It was great!”. Instead, my Dad was on the line. He said, “Becky? I have bad news. Mom had a heart attack….and she passed away.”

From the moment I got that phone call until now my life has pretty much been a big blur.  I just feel lost.  I always had my Mom to turn to.  She helped me get through the loss of Harry.  I remember hysterically crying and her hugging me and saying “I never wanted you to go through a loss like this.”  My two best friends have been taken away, both so young. It’s just not fair.  Here is what I said at Mom’s memorial:

It still amazes me how life can change in a second.  I’ve been through a lot in the past two years, but nothing has prepared me for this.  A year and a half ago, I said goodbye to one best friend.  Today, I have to say goodbye not only to my Mom, but my other best friend.  She was my confidant, and my cheerleader.  She was the one I turned to when I needed advice, when I needed a laugh, when I needed a shoulder to cry on.

In our 31 years together, she taught me right from wrong, how to laugh at myself and make others laugh with me, and how to love. There were a few other important life lessons that Mom taught me: If you have nothing nice to say, don’t say anything at all. Always wear clean underwear. And always step out with your right foot.

It’s hard to believe she is gone; someone so full of life and who just made everyone around her so happy.  There is a huge hole in our lives now, but I hope we can try to fill it with the happy memories she gave us. I know she is here watching over us.  And she always will be.  If you need her, just speak to her and she will still listen.  She will still guide us just like she always did.  I will never forget you Mom, the world was a brighter place because you were in it. I love you.

I put this slideshow together with some of her favorite songs and it played at her memorial service.  A friend of my Mom’s sent me an e-mail after she heard about what happened.  It said, “She loved life and lived well.” Those words describe her perfectly. I miss you Mom.